Alrighty gals. I said I would revisit this topic....
I don't do resolutions. Not usually.
Every time I try to, I fail at them. Defiantly. I don't like it hanging over my head.
Recently I started feeling guilty about not being resolute to loose weight or get fit. Especially when I go into the store or pick up a magazine or turn on the tv, even standing online at the post office overhearing conversations. Everything this time of the year pertains to dieting resolutions....gettting thinner. Going to the gym, weight watchers blah, blah, blah.
My mind said.. "I know I should. I know I need to.
My body says please do"
Tying my shoes should not be this dificult..right? I'm out of breath...that's simply not normal. I'm certainly not huge, but I'm not comfortable in my skin right now. Hence, GUILT TURNED INTO ADMITANCE.
Retrieving something from upstairs is a task these days and I have to think over whether it can wait or not so I don't exert myself. Pa-lease! I'm out of shape.
I'm short so chub looks even worse on me.
I used to be a very physical person. Really I was. I played sports when I was younger, I ran, cheered, played soccer, jumped hurdles and pitched fast balls....a distant past. I thought I still had that competitive edge. That was until last September rolled around and our family reunion came. Playing the family kickball game...my competitive mind forgot that my body couldn't quite keep up with it....but tried anyway. I paid for a week, lets just leave it at that....it was bad.
Also, I can no longer tell myself it's perfectly alright because I just had a baby...he's past toddlerhood now. Ridiculous right?
I want to be healthier. It's now not about thin or chubby It's about feeling better!
But I like food. Good food? Really like it....alot. Especially all those recipes you girls post out there in blogland that I haveta' try.
(These are actual ads....terrible isn't it? Funny too.)
Actually I'm pretty happy...just a lil outta shape, ok, alot outta shape!
So confession time:
I'm gettin too big for my Britches....yes, too big.
Carrying a little too much junk in the trunk.
I am trying to lose weight, but it keeps finding me.
I'll be selling shade in a few more years if I continue on this path of indecency.
(colorful isn't it?)
About 8 years ago I started running again with my extremely thin cousin (who was like a drill sargent). Within no time, I had lost a few pounds, felt great and dropped a few sizes. I proudly wore those size smalls again for a while. I have yet to still part with them...(just for proof). It was easier then since I didn't have a lot to loose and I could carry my weight around making running not so very hard, oh and should I not forget the 8 years younger, yup that helped too.
I would run again but the friction burn hurts my thighs so bad I can't walk for a few days after! Oh my, did I just confess that? I know this isn't really a funny topic but I have to make light of it. To laugh about it all ...thats exercise after all right? Laughing? Did you know that 100 laughs a day is equal to 10 minutes of exercise,
I actually read that! Really? I get the giggles so often I should already be so skinny!
ONION diet warning...Is this because you are crying so hard you cannot eat? Don't think it would stop me...I love onions.
I've done Curves, Jazzercise, step classes, Lucille Roberts, Billy Banks Taebow......Sweatin to the Oldies with Gene, Denise Richards, those walk it off tapes all on VHS.......I bought the biggest looser on DVD....A YEAR AGO! It's still all safely wrapped in it's casing while I decide if it is "right for me". You name it. Atkins, South beach, Weight watchers, the soup diet, oh dare I mention slim fast...mmmhmmmm. They're all on my exercise resume, some I'm ashamed to even admit. I've watched Biggest Looser too. Cheered them on...with popcorn in hand!
I even pray....
A DIETER'S PRAYER
AS I WAKE UP FROM MY SLEEP
I PRAY MY DIET I MAY KEEP
BUT IF TEMPTATION MAKES ME SLIP,
I PRAY THE LORD MY PANTS WON'T RIP.
Amen to that.
The fact that I have thyroid disease doesn't help the matter either...it's all so frustrating. The fact that I rarely make time for myself to prepare the proper meals and portions contributes for sure. So I know how I've gotten this way now how to fix it is the dilema.
Recap: I don't like to diet, count calories, go to meetings, have trouble getting motivated and well, again, I like to eat. Why can't we all have a Jillian Michaels?
BTW, I've never taken anything for dieting....ie. dexatrim etc. But I am thinking about looking into Alli , anyone else try that one? Curious if it works.
I'm in my biggest size Big Girl Jeans currently. I won't buy them any bigger so I squeeze into them...or give up and wear sweats....mostly sweats.
Will....go on.....Do.... It....you...Chubby....Girl.
That is what I say to myself as I put on my jeans....between breaths.
So what's a girl like me to do? I'm sure I'm not the only gal to struggle with this issue. But truth is...I'm a chunker right now and I must do something about it. Must address it.
It's been a while since I've done anything healthy really. In fact my unhealthy hiatus has been on tour for almost five years now. With everything going on in my life these days I need to work off the stress and get back to healthier habits.
Just warning you...if you read my blog I will have to discuss this topic often. I will fall off the wagon, probably ripping into brownies and cakes and good foods.....Being real here. I might come across as a diet hypocrite. You may read my rants in disgust, just warning.
I will never be able to cut it all out...but I hope you continue to follow and comment still. I am planning on getting much more active instead and maybe portion control....? Yup that's my new plan.
Roller derby....that should whip my fannie right into shape. Ouch..no thanks.
All in all, I am resoluting (in my own way) to get healthier this year. If I dabble in hobby eating it will be just that a dabble. I will not completely diet, I know this. Making healthier choices, healthy eating habits and portion control is key right?
I want to hear what ya'll have to say....
what are your success stories, did you have to form new healthy habits, how did you change your lifestyles so that you could get healthier ?
If you are like me now, just starting out and thinking on it, share what it is that you want to do? I hope to read some input here. A good plan requires good support.
One last poem for my
Big Gal pants before I go...
Your days are now numbered thats for sure,
I'm waiting for the day you're worn no more.
These flabby legs soon will be tight
I'm vowing to try with all my might...
once this chocolate bar is gone from sight.
Hehe
Me...this summer...he,he!
Oh lordy, I hope ya'll come back! I have that give away and ya know that news I want to share...
still not the right time though, sorry. Soon, promise....
Take good care!
XO
Dee